pgil's Journal

Wednesday, November 30th, 2005

5:18 pm - HMMMMMMMM!

Hello,
How is everyone these days....
I am in a stupor today. I had so much to do I had no idea where to start. It is in the evening, and I am not even done with my laundry. Crap
I did not make to my violin lesson today, I had to go to the clinic this morning. I woke up with a rash on my both legs. they are only from my lower knee to my ankles. My ankles itch like crazy. I now have some sauve to put on it, it still itches. I am not sure what it is from. I had to wear long jeans today, because the rash is so bad, that if I do not cover it, I will itch it. So I cannot wear my shorts.
I have no idea where it came from, and why it is happening.
Meanwhile, I went to Barnes and Nobles, and spent 168 dollars in books today. Why am not sure.
I am sick and tired of the same stuff. I bought the book Narina, so I am interested what this is all about.
I went to my piano lessons, and I sucked. SUCKEd
I could not play a note if I wanted too. I have many things on my mind, but I need to focus only what I am doing at the time. I cannot concentrate today at all.
Maybe tomorrow will be better. I hope so.
I want to do nothing, but things around here are not allowing me to do so.
I have no idea what is happening to my lazy mind. I want to read and just relax. Maybe it is the trip I took to Texas, and I had this thing about being relax, and I cannot focus. I do not know what it is.
I have to make this short, I have to change to go workout in 15 minutes. So I better close for now.
Take care
Write soon

current mood:

busy

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Friday, March 4th, 2005

9:36 am - Hello

How is everyone? I am doing okay. I have been busy as usaul.
Monday, go out with friends, and finish up homework. Tuesday, Classes, and lunches with friends, and Wednesday book clubs, lunch, violin lessons. Thursday, classes, Friday, housework, and errands, and piano lessons. Between all these I do the family errands, housework, laundry, and whatever I need to do over the time. It seems I leave at 9 for class on Tues and Thurs, and I do not make it home till 5 or 530. So lot os things to do.
Wednesday night, my friend,Ping, and I went to the Duran Duran concert. We went to Red Lobster for dinner, and had a small drink, and lots of diet coke. Then we rushed to the concert since it started at 8. We were there until 1130pm. The concert was exciting, and a great dancing, and singing concert. I love it. My friend, Ping, never has been to a rock and roll concert, and I was glad I was able to give her the experience.
She loved it. Her eyes were sized of quarters all night long. She had a good time. Last, Monday afternoon, I had my first accupunture massage done. I was so stressed, and I need to relax with life again.
I slept like a baby, and since then I have been sleeping well.
So I can focus and relax with life again. I am going to have another accupunture massage again on Monday morning. I am ready to have this done. It was an experience for life.
I have no aches or pains, but the important thing is I do not have no stress and I can deal with life again. This what is important to me again.
I have been so much under stress matters with family matters with my son and his wife, and I do not know to help, and I need to stay away from certain situations. But I have to be supportive. It is a long story, sometime I will have to burst it out. This will help the best.
I am trying to be supportive with Dennis grieving, and help his mom especially. I want to help her so much, but is something she has to do, all the legal things that comes with death in the family.
But I am back to normal, in my mind, and stressed relief.
Well, I need to go for now. I have a lunch date with my friend Maryellen. I have not seen her for about a month.
Take care I enjoy all your LJ enteries.
I miss all of you
Hope all of you are feeling better soon, and take care of yourselves so you can feel better soon. It is the crap is going around, KNOCK ON WOOD, I have not been sick.
See ya

current mood:

awake

Tuesday, October 26th, 2004

4:07 pm

Hello
How is everyone today? I hope it is going well.
I had a math test this morning, and I was so nervous, I had to calm myself down, once I did it went okay. I am not sure why I am all uptight again. Shoot it is only a test. I am doing well in the class. I am doing well in English. I am on top of everything, and making it worth the time there.
It is sure a crappy day. Raining I do not like it. I feel like crap when it is raining. I am not sure why. I think it is because of the coolness and dampness in the air. My feet feel soggy today. I had to wear socks on my feet. Again, this is the last thing I want to wear for clothing.
The house looks good for decoration with the Halloween decorations. I feel real feastive for the holidays.
Yesterday, I had gone to the eye clinic and picked up my new glasses. I feel okay. They really do not look any different then the old ones. I can actually see better. They have the new prisms in them. I used them last night, and they felt like I can See. I do not wear my glasses often, but I do need them when I do not wear my contacts.
I finished my book for Book Club, it was so sad. It was called the Liars and Saints. It is about a family they were a Catholic family and they all grew up with different values and secrets. Margot, had gotten pregnant when she was sixteen and went to France and gave the baby son to her mother. The mother pretended she was pregnant. Then came home with the baby boy, which her husband wanted desperatley. He find out, and kept it a secret from the boy and when he grew up, later found out, and excepted it well. But the twist was Margot could not have babies anymore, She would miscarry, and later was not able to concieve. She was broken hearted an took mentally hard, when her son, had started a family. It went throught the family truimphs how emtoional she became around kids. Then the other kids had issues, one other sisters was very sucessful in life, got bored with the husband, divorced, and had taken the daughter away with her, and she became a lesbian, and the family, especially had a hard time accepting her as her daughte as a lesbian. Then the mother and father went to itally for vacation, and the mother was killed from a gangester and how the family issues were unraveled with the new baby, jamie and then how eveyone was trying to get along to the furneral. It seemed like a typical family adjusting with one another, so they can be together on the holidays, and furnerl. It was a good family sad novel.

Then, I finsihed my other pleasure book last night. It was called Random Family. It was just as good. It started with people living in proverty with drugs, and stripping, and gangster, pimps, and so on in the Bronx. The family issue bringing up young kids while dads are in prison, and how the prison change these people. Overall does crime really pay. This book is true and real people were in the story, and these were events that started in the 80s throughout until 2001. These details was so explicit you can see the actually events happening with these familys. It was so different for me to read, because I usually do not read these kinds of books, but it was something i wanted to read. How families lives in proverty, and situations in drugs, and selling, and getting caught by the law, and how women have these children in these certain circumstances in living conditions, and how these women have mutiple children and by different men each time.How these woment take abuse from these men as well. It was a good insight for me to read, on the other side of the tracks. It was so detail I could actually see the everts happening with the welfare and school was involved when the kids started to go to school in the Bronx.
It something really interesting for sure. It is way America let happen to our kids and parents make choices for their kids.
Anyhow, this was I was thinking about most of the afternoon.
Tonight, I am starting a book called, Kite Reader or Runner. It is a true story also. It is some guy from Afganistan going back in time and how he survives his world, and how is in the San Fran now.
It is a long book but is supposed to be true.

I better go and take a short nap, before Dennis comes home tonight. We have to pay bills, and send them out in the mail tonight. I want to be able to help Dennis, since he has helped me many nights with things around the house.
I hope everyone had a great day, and Keep writing.
Take care and put on a happy smile today. The sun came out with some happiness.
See ya later

current mood: my feet is chilly &damp BRR.

Sunday, October 24th, 2004

11:25 am - It is a rainy and chilly day!

Hi
What is up with everone these days. I have had the worst few weeks ever. I cannot sleep, I cannot concentrate, I cannot focus, I do not want to do anything.I am not having fun in school(which I usally do). I feel I am overwhelmed all the time( which I shoud not be in most cases. I do not want to do anything, but to read my books, newspapers, and take a nap here and there. It is a terrible situation I am in right now. I had to go to a therapist to find out what is up with this attitude, over whatever you want to call it. I feel crabby in the mornings, ( which I am not morning person) but I still want to sleep more than anything. So I am trying to make adjustments with ME. It is not easy making new adjustments to these changes. I going to head off to bed early, and start my reading early, and make myself a bit more tired, and this way I do not toss and turn. My brain will be tired and it wants to sleep. I am not sure what is? I think it is the weather change. I do not like weather changing. Here it is always raining and a bit of chill in the air.
I found it more miserable to put on jackets, and (I hate wearing socks on my feet to keep warm) I like wearing sandals which are more comfortable, and my white tennis shoes. Now its raining I had to make sure I dress warmer so I do not get sick, and it is always a bit of chill in the air. However, it is almost winter here.
Friday night, Dennis, Teresa and I went to Happy Dogs here in Gilroy. It was fun until Dennis complained about his dinner, and I felt the dinner was ruined. He felt his dinner which he paid 14 dollars for the quality and quanity was not good. After we left the resteraunt. We decided to go to the movies " Team America". Dennis and Teresa laughed a lot throughout the movie, and I found it sick humor is most parts. It made them happy and that is all it counts for. We had a good time making fun of it afterwards. dumb movie for Sure.
On Saturday, Teresa and I went to out nails done, and need for a pedicure. It was okay, I was not able to get the same girl, because she was on vacation for the next month. She went to Vietnam to see her family. It wil be exciting to hear from her when she arrives at home. She will be able to tell me all about it.
Later, we went to Costco, and we had new tires put on my Durango. It was about due. They only had a few thousand miles left, for the tires would not be too safe. We found them with the coupon, I recieved in the mail. It still cost us over $600 for set of four. During the time, Costco putting on the tires, Dennis, Teresa and I walked over to Chili's and had a late lunch. We had a few minutes left before they were finished, we stopped in Linen and Things. I told him I had my ATM card, and he said jokingly, you can keep the ATM card in your wallet. I did not find anything I wanted. So we headed back to Costco to pick up the Durango, and we headed to Target.
We had to pick up a gift certificate for our friends, who had a baby boy a few days ago. We did not know what to give them so we decided to give the baby boy a Target gift card so they can buy what they want.
Then we headed home. I finished up the laundry. I started to work on my Algebra excersice to be ready for my test on Tuesday. We had homework but I almost done with it.
My plan today, is finsh up on my Math studying for the weekend, and finsih my reading on my English reading. It is only 30 pages. We are reading Puddnhead Wilson, and answer one question, which is due on Tuesday. Pretty easy assignment for the weekend.
Today, we are going to finish up on the organization on the closet we had the handyman put in last week. We need to put Teresa stuff in it so she can get it out my closet. Dennis has one more fan cieling to put in the guest bedroom, and we will be finished with that project.
Yes.The handy men did a fantastic job with the work they did for the putting in the outlest in the ceilings and the wiring.theymade no mess.
Sorry so long I guess I have a lot to talk about today.
Well, this is what I have been up to? What have you been up to lately.
Take care
Keep writing

current mood:

sleepy

Tuesday, October 5th, 2004

2:59 pm - Hello Everyone

Hi
What is happening with everyone these days?
Dennis left for Phoenix this morning. He had to be at the airport at 630am
for a conference call, and he was not able to do it here, because it was going be a long one, and this way he could be at the airport without any distractions of the traffic.
Today, was a good day for school, and it was the day of having fun. I went to school, and it was not stressful. We are going to have a test in Math on Monday. This way, I can study over the weekend. I barely passed my last math test, with a C. I was so tired that day. Oh well, life keeps moving on and I will not worry about it. I knew the stuff, but I was really tired that day. I have to make sure I get some rest before the next test.
I am watching the movie Secret Window with Johnny Depp, and it is a slow movie thus far.
I have install a screen saver on my laptop and it is becoming a pain in the butt, because now with the pop ups, and the screen savers and tends to work funny. Not only that my computer goes into a hibernating mode,amd I have to work it out so I can work on it. I need to change the timing different.
I will have to wait till Dennis comes home so he can change it. This is driving me crazy. i like my screen savar, its a three dimenision of a aquarium with all kinds of fish in the water, sharks, clown fishs stars, and I do not know the other kinds of fish, Oh yea, the dolphins they hunch back and swimming, and they are in their pods.
Well, I just jabbering along here, and I want to thank you, again for letting me vent last weekend, Sometimes it is needed.
Heve a super weekend, Take care
Keep Writing

current mood:

okay

Tuesday, August 31st, 2004

7:18 pm - Hello

Hello
How are you all doing? I am doing well. There is so much to do in a day. I ran here and there, and by end of the day, I am a bit tired. I try to have my homework done in the afternoon, so I can relax and have some kind of evening HUH!
Isn't this weather wierd. For example, In the morning, it is chilly and in the afternoon it is blazing HOT. During the night, I am wearing my winter PJs I am freezing at night. Even with all the blankets.
I am wondering what is going on with the weather cycle, or is it me. I tend to be a bit on the tired side, and all I want to do is sleep. My patience is very limited, but still keeping the irratation to a level to myself. I am sure it is the weather. I love my quiet time, and there is not much of that anymore.
I do not have too much to say tonight. I am thinking I should go soak in the tub, and read my book, and the night with a good relaxing time.
Good night
Talk tomorrow

Have a super day
Keep writing
Miss all of you

Thursday, April 1st, 2004

12:46 pm

Tuesday, March 16th, 2004

6:13 pm

How is everyone today? It is a beautiful day. I went to my meeting with the counslor at Gavilan, and I feel great. I did my scheduling for classes with Gavilan. It was not hard, I have most of the hard work done, from EVC schedule. I had to do some alterations, but otherwise the meeting went very quickly.
Dennis just called he will be home late tonight. He will be done with his last meeting around 7pm. He predicts he should be home anywhere from 8:30 or 9 tonight.
You know I support Dennis in his career, but sometimes I start to get inpatient, and I do not why, I have always supported his work, and sports, or whatever he does, but this is becoming old. I think it is my state of mind. I would like him to start coming home on a regular basis. I do not want to become a nag, because I know he works very long and hard hours. He provides us a good home, food, and I am privelage I do not have to work, but I am having a difficult time right now expressing my feelings, which I should be supporting. Well, it is just a state of mind right now.
I know when he gets home, I will make him a sandwhich and he will discuss his day, and I will do the same. Sometimes, I wonder if this is all worth being alone at times. I want to make it clear, I do not mind being alone, and when he gets home he will eat will talk, and then he is so exhausted, he actually does not look good. A person needs his rest as well. There are so many hours in a day, and you need to take care of yourself.
I guess I will have to take some of the bad with the good. I am not complaining but I really want my life back with my hubby. He is so specail and I do not like him working so late. I am hoping when this acquisition goes through and finishes up, it will be like life again. From the conversation we had last night, it will be a few more months. I will be okay, I am glad I have my study buddies, and book club,my books, homework, violin, and the computer to keep me busy. Anyhow, I do have a good life, and I need to stop thinking of me, and be THANKFUL, and let Dennis have a good career, without any problems. I have not said too much, how this is affecting me, sleeping, and my state of mind. He has other things to deal with. I will have to talk to him about when it all said and done.
One thing, I have to look forward is in April, we are going to Europe. Teresa, Dennis and I will have a good time. We will some down time, as a family.
I have decided to bring my violin to practice on our down time in our suite will be in. I have been in this suite before in Munich, Germany. It is like living at home with all the convienences, additional to an indoor pool, and other ammendites.
We are planning to go to Austria, and Switzerland during the ten days we will be there. As I was listening to the history teacher this afternoon, about Austria, I was imagining the place we are going. We are planning to go to
Vienna, Austria, and Zurich Switzerland, and the Alps in Switerland. This will be a great down time for us. The flight is over 11 hours. We fly out of San Fran, and we fly direct on the way there. On the way home, We fly through London, and I am hoping to spend the afternoon in
London, which I will take a airport tour. I have done these before it is really slick as pie.
Anyhow, I do not want to bore anyone. We will have to get together and talk about spring break adventures when we all collaborate the following week.
I am getting a little hungry, and I need to put something in my tummy.
Take care
See ya later.

Saturday, March 13th, 2004

2:33 pm - Busy day

Hi Everyone
I hope everyone is having a good day. I feel exhausted right now. I woke up this morning feeling a ambitous, so I decided to go to Safeway and rent a Rug Doctor. I have been wanting to clean the back room for sometime. I know I was not able to find a professional for today. I went and cleaned the carpet myself.I have never done this before. It is not the best as a professional, but at least the dirt is out of the carpet. I am going to call a professional to come in do all the carpet in the summer. I do not have the time to do the whole house this spring. I have done some touch up on the walls, to be painted, and now I have this weird idea I want to change the color on the walls, but I know that will not fly with my husband. I at least see what he thinks. Do you ever get ambitionous on doing something you never done before, this is one of them for me. It was an adventure to have done all this work.. It is hard work.
Well, I just going through some e-mails and I was eager to talk to my friends in Minnesota. My friend Theresa has a very difficult life right now. She is trying to raise a child by herself, and the father is a loser a Big Loser. She knows it, but why have a child with him, I just do not get it.I know she wanted to be mom someday, but why go through someone that cannot help you through the difficulties of raising a kid. It has to be difficult, and I know it would be for me. Unless, I am not getting the whole picture on this aspect. I feel for these single moms in this world, which chose to have kids and raising them by yourself. I have sisters that do this, and I see it is very difficult. I am just lucky I did not have to do it. I would probably be a mess up girl.
This is all I did today, clean and touch ups on the walls, seems fun uh! not but it needed to be done.
Well, I think I am going to start reading my Zinn book, and see what I can learn here. I printed the info from the computer. I was pissed. It seemes the link we are to read from the Johnny Gun does not work. I am getting really tired of this situation, second time this has happened. What a person can do. Well, I just deal with it, obviously if I cannot get it, no other person will either.
Well, I am going to sit in the backyard and read the book.
Have a nice day.
Write later.
ps. Dennis and Teresa called wants to go out to Chinese tonight. I of course agreed. I love Chinese, it has become one of my favorite foods.
Write later
Have a great weekend.

Friday, March 12th, 2004

4:37 pm

Hi there
How is everyone today? Today I went to school and took a Math test. I passed with a B-, and I knew what I missed. I am eaget to find out how I did on the History 2 test. I really have not thought about it. I am not sure why.
Today was a ME day. I went to school, and talked with some students, and so on. I came home put some laundry in the dryer and took off. I went to have my nails done, pedicure, had my brow plucked, (really painful), and I had a facial done. I never had a facial done before. I was trying to find something different to do this afternoon. These activities took over three hours to do. I had a good time just doing something for me only. I found this was fun.
I came home today to pick up some emails, and I recieved an email from Dennis. We have been talking about to go somewhere during our Spring Break. We were planning to go to India, but that trip needs to be put off, because it had something to do with our visas. We will not get them in time, and the papers from the India's government to be invited to their country. It is confusing, but we had the tickets, but we needed to use them, so we decided to go to Germany, and Switzerland, and Austria. These countries are very close to each other. We are leaving on April 8.
the most fascinating thing is we are taking our daughter Teresa with us. She has never been overseas before. So we invited her to come with us. She had to try to get her passports quickly. She came home early today, and she will have it in two weeks. It will be fun. She will enjoyed the adventure.
I was disappointed that our visas were not be ready in time for out trip to India. Oh well.
Dennis and Teresa will at the flee market for the weekend, during the day. I have planned to some reading, of course some history, and of course math. I am going to practice my violin this weekend.I may have my car washed and cleaned out, and may go to Costco.
I know it will be warm out tomorrow, so I have to find some activity during the day. I will find something for the afternoon, so I do not get bored. I am not too worried. I may pick up a chick flick for Sunday afternoon.
Well, I just rambling right now, so I close for now.
Write soon
Have a nice weekend. :)

Thursday, March 11th, 2004

3:53 pm

HI
I hope everyone is doing well. I had a good time yesterday studying with Crystal on our test. I had a good time at Chevys. We had some good conversations and I was able to go home and think about certain things. I try not to have all the answers,but I feel I have that mom instict in me all the time.
Last night, a hungry cat came to our door, meowing becasue he or she was hungry. Dennis and I went through our refrigerator trying to find some scraps for him to eat. I think she is a pregnant kitty. She ate a whole piece of buttered bread, and whole piece of boneless chicken. We gave her some water for something to drink. I was starting to cry, because I miss my boy, Felix. I know he is gone forever, but I could not help not stop feeling bad. I tried to overcome it, but all night I would dream Felix would come back alive again. I think this is the reason I had a headache and a upset stomach all day. I feel better now. It is that I missed him so much I am starting to make myself sick again. I need to take control, and realizing my boy Felix is not coming back, and nothing is going to change. I do I fix this issue. It has been over five months now. I would think, I should move on, but I found my self crying over the same things. My husband, all he does is hug me and comfort me as much as possible. He has no idea what to do with me, with this situation when it comes out. I know he cannot solve this problem for me, but he is trying to make sure he understands what I am feeling. I feel for him sometimes, because he cannot fix the problem and he know Felix was very old, and very sick, which we had to put him to sleep. We had to do it for him, not for our selfishness. It is difficult, but life keeps going and it will heal someday.
Luckily, school is going well. I found out today, Joann and myself we have recieved a B on our concept check. In math I have a test again on Friday. We will be able to use our notes, and the book for the quiz. Thank goodness.
Well, I better get going here. I need to do my math homework for Friday. Dennis and I want to go to San Jose for dinner. I think we are going to Red Lobster.
I hope everyone did well on the test in History, I only had problems giving out examples, and that corporation.
I better go for now. I have to fold some clothes, and get them in the basket, so Dennis can take upstairs tonight.
He just called, so he is on his way home. This early, I wondered. Oh well, it will be nice to have him home early tonight.
Have a great day! Write later

Tuesday, March 9th, 2004

4:12 pm

Hi
This is a happy day. I feel like screaming on top of the world, saying I am happy. In history we able to have class outside on the grass. I loved it. I think we need to do this kind of thing more often.
I had my school buddies over for a bit for studying. My husband thought we worked well together. He liked the fact we were all laughing, eating, and drinking, not the hard stuff but the good stuff in life. He liked the fact everyone was having fun studying. Sometimes, when you study to serious it becomes boring and you drip through the emotions and then that is it. Also, he liked when Crystal plays the instruments. He was amazed how she likes instruments. I like it when Amanda and Crystal comes over because I want them feel comfortable, but I try not to overwhelm them.
When you are from the Midwest (Minnesota) this is kind of hostpitality you always get. First, is come over and relax, lets see what is in the refrigerator or pantry to eat. Second, it is the drink, what kind of drinks we have to serve, to what you eat. Thirdly, it is eat hearty, and enjoy the company, Finally, the laughter and fun of all comes together.
When we have a family issue we have to take care, we always bring out the food, and something to drink. Something to do with the combinations, we as parents, can get the family settled, and we can talk. I do not know what it is about food, but it is a comfort.
This is probably why we are so different from the people here in California. We have noticed that congregating around the kitchen table, or table, we get the conversations going. Otherwise, it is very serious, and we tend to yell at each other. This is a Midwest tradition we will always have. I am glad we do have it. It brings people together and forget what is making us pissed.
My math is stressful. I am not sure why. I understand the concept of the formula of algebra, but I just cannot implement it on paper. I get so frustrated, I am not sure, I am going to get this figured out. We are going to have a quiz, and I do need to focus on this, and I need to figure it out before Friday. I know I can do it, it is just doing it.
I have finished the book "Rape of Nanking" last night. I read the book in a few days. I have feelings for these poor Chinese people how they were brutalized and tortured
unneceessay from the Japanese soldiers. The worst is the United States had known about the brutal and torature and did not do anything. I would of thought they would have. Secondly,the Japanese officials never apologized till the 1990's of the massacre. The Nanking massacre is not mention in any history books, or text books.Even from this day, there is no mention of this massacre that took place in China. The count of the murdered or other kinds of tortured, were over 300,000 Chinese were killed. There is no Memorial for these people at all.
I could go on about this book. It is amazing. I did not cry but I felt weary about reading how the soldier actually used sex and did awful sexual things to women, and how the women how to perform in front of their families and so on.At first I did not want to read it, but I felt I needed to, because it a part of history that was never told. It is actually gruesome, but it is something people should know, like the way Jews were treated and the Blacks. It is awful.
Now, I am reading the "The Color Purple".
I love talking about my book readings.
Have a Happy Day :)

Monday, March 8th, 2004

2:52 pm

HI
I hope everyone had a nice weekend. The weather here has been really awesome. I am really greatful we live in California, because of the nice weather. Where I came from it is still very cold. We are talking possible -2 now for the evening high. It maybe the high in the 30s during the day. Snow is still in the forcast and usaully the Midwest will get one more snow storm before the spring.
Dennis and I put out our lawn ornaments this weekend. Yes, it was a simple job, but it the time consuming part. We did it, and we did not disagree where to locate them this year. We actually said, lets put where they were last year. We are ready to do some moving palm trees from the back to the front yard. We have two of them are in good size. We bought these for 3.45 at Walmart, these things were not even two inches high. We thought we try them, and now we need to move them. We want to take some rose or something out of the front. They are very strangling and it is matter when we have time to do it. We should be doing this kind of thing in the next few weeks, before it gets to hot. Yea HOT
When spring is here, I get all this new energy,which I did not have in the winter. I am eager to get out there in the evenings and start walking again. These kinds of walks always help me sleep better, and get my brain fresh. It is like I forget everything what is going on, and I focus on the walk, and enjoy seeing the neighborhoods, and it is actually fun. When it comes to studying, and praticing the violin, I can focus better. It is like the chemical balance in the brain is more stimualated, and it also helps me to keep my weight down, which gives me excersice.
I like to eat, even though, I am a picky eater.
I only will eat certain things, and a certain way. It the way I am . If it is not that way, forget I will not eat. I just a picky eater. I enjoy my water, fruits, carrots, assorted veggies, and especially my vanilla ice cream.
MMMM
I like peanut butter sandwich with my jelly, but I cannot eat anything with wheat, barley, rye, any kinds of grains, because I am allergic to them. I get a real bad stomach ache, and other things happen. I was diagnoses with Celic disease a few years back, and I have to take care of my self. I do have a peanut butter sanwhich now and then, because it is the urge of the peanut butter, jelly I want, but I only eat rarely. If my doctor knew I was eating that sandwhich she would kick my ass. I been with her for 3 years now, and she always says do not eat the bread.
So this made me become a picky eater. I love food though, but only certain foods.
Do you like the spring weather? Does it give you the feeling of new energy within yourself? I like the new plants blooming, the roses starting to grow with their leaves on them. I like the buds forming on the trees, and the birds chirping everyday,especially in the morning. I like the sun as long it is not too hot. I like the fresh smell in the air. We started to leave our bedroom windows open to get the cool air coming in, it also takes the dullness of the winter air in the house. It does not seem too stuffy in the house. I love the spring weather.
Now we are talkig about the summer weather. All I can say it is HOT TOO Hot! We usaully have all the windows shut because it too hot, and the air on. Well, that answers all that questions.
I need to go. I feel a little sleepy this afternoon. I have done some e-mails to friends back home. It is exciting to do those once a week. We keep our friendships alive with the emails going.
Well, I need to take that nap. Later, start that homework in history, and in math.
See ya :) :)

Sunday, March 7th, 2004

12:37 pm

Hi
How is everyone today? Last night, my husband and I had a great evening together. We had no cell phones, no computers, no telephones, no one but us. We went to the Symphony in San Jose. The concert was called the "A Classical Affair". This event drew us with some conculsion we live in a very shelter life sometimes. We arrived in the The Center of Performing of Arts, it was delightful. We looked at each other at first, and we realized we were the youngest in the crowd. We really did not care, but it was weird. Anyhow, we arrived at the Center, and we went came early to listen to the discussion before the concert, to learn what we about to hear. During the conference, I realized while I was in Italy, I heard of these names before, but while I was there in Bologna,Italy, it went over my head. Anyhow, as we were listening we learning about the instruments, the reasoning why certain actions were going to happen. We went to out seats, which were perfect. We were in the row 10 from the stage and off to the sides, where the violins, and violas, were located, and on the other side the cellos, double bass were. I was watching how the violionist and violaist, were in sink all the time. The timing of the music, and my husband, Dennis he was observing the double bass, and cellos were performing. So, at the intermission we were collabrating like to two people should. He was excited about what he was observing and hearing, We were talking like to children about a sport events. At the end, we were on our way home, we were going to stop to get a dessert on the way home.We chatted so much, which we did not even realized we were in Gilroy. We did find something in Gilroy,a small coffee shop in town, but it was like our first date again.
We were both dressed up formally.I had put on my sexiest dress I owned. I was not planning to do this all day, but when I decided to get dress, I felt like this was going to be a good evening for us.
We did not go to bed till 3am. This is late for us. We were realizing we do not spend too much time with each other, like we should have. I knew this all along, but I knew Dennis was busy, and I was busy with school. I realized how much I missed him as a person, rather than someone who we live with. We have a good relationship, but sometimes it takes a good night out, to realize we need to slow down, and take time for each other. Some other time, I would like to discuss the music, but everyone here needs to get something to eat. We are going to our favorite Chinese for lunch, and then we need to go to Costco, for some major shopping. When I get home I need to put all the stuff away, and start on the homework.
Last night, was a romantic, but not a mushy night.We had a great adult conversation with just the two of us. Without any other adults, and kids, or whatever. The summary of the night rated was the best for the long time. We needed this night to realize we need to do this more often.
See ya:) :)
ps. Dennis had a grimaced face when I told him the prices of the tickets, but by intermission, he said the best money we ever spent for a long time. He was happy we went. For Dennis to say something like this, he really means it. He did not say it was okay. He enjoyed himself, and I did
also. Thank goodness he did not kick my ass..I hoping to talk about the perfomance soon. It was remarkable.
See ya

Friday, March 5th, 2004

4:40 pm

Hi
How is everyone's day? I hope it all went well for everyone. I had to go to school this morning for math. We recieved our Chapter 1 test back and I gotten a A. I was not worried I did not failed, but I was worried if I had missed too many. I was astonished, I actually understand the math. I do ask lots of questions, and I am not ashamed not to ask questions or say I do not get it. I make sure I understand, so I can get throught the algebra part. I was excited this morning I had to call my husband, Dennis, but of course, he was super busy. He listened, but I could feel he had other things on his mind. He is a good listener, but I was not thinking he could of been in a middle of something that needed his attention. Oh well, not big deal, he is really busy. We will talk tonight I am sure.
I went to get my hair cut and permed. The permed turned out great, a little tight, but it will loosen up in a few weeks. I like when I get my haircut ang perm it makes feel great. I get rid of the split ends I have and I start fresh again. I had to buy hair products and it got expensive really fast. Oh well, that is part of being a woman.
I purchased tickets for the synphony for Saturday night. I was able to get real good seats for both of us. We will be in the bottom floor, and we will be up nine rows on the violin side. This will be a new experience for both of us. When my husband finds how much I paid, he will probably kick my ass.... I spent 48 dollars a piece, but then of course we had to pay 5 dollar fee for something, so ended up like 101 dollars for these tickets. Like I said he will probably kick my ass. We see how reacts on this. Well, he will have to get over it, what he spends in his music hobby, I do not complain. Oh well that is life.
I have been to plays in the theater many times with my friend Betsy from Minneapolis. I loved it. She would get through her work, and we go on an evening, and it was great. The last we went to that was fun, the Christmas play on Scrooge. I loved that play. I even like the play on MacBeth. At first I had a difficult time understanding it, but by the intermission, I got it. Then we went to see the Nutcraker that was the most beautiful sight there is. I have seen it in the ballot style with a full pledge orchestra. It is a wonderful experience, I miss those with my friend Betsy. When I see her in the summer, I am too busy with other family members I do not have time to these kinds of things. My next adventure, and I hope I can go to is a musical. My dream sometime I can go to "The Lion King" in San Francisco. I want to see it really bad.
I think tickets on sale for a summer performances, but I cannot commit that far. Something may come up and then I am stuck.
I am dam good book, "Rape of Nanking" I cannot put it down. It so emotional and yet these poor Chinese people, their were butalized and killed in front of their families and having sex with these Japanese soldiers, it is so tramatized. I cannot believe the United States did not step to help them.Of course, I am not too far into the book, and so I have to see how this book is going to end. This a true book, which the event really happened. This happened in the 1937... So I have to finish it to see how this ends.
Then, I have to start my book club book. "The Seduction of Water" I have no idea what this about. At least, I have a month to read it. I want to start my book for pleasure "All About My Sisters". This book is about three sisters. I cannot remember what it is about, but I am eager to see what it is all about. If this book relates to my three sisters, I am going to buy each one a copy. I will see how they will react to it. Like
I said, I am going to read it first, to see if it relates to us.
I just recieved a call from Dennis, he said he should be home in about an hour, so I better pick up the family room a bit, and get my clothes folded into the basket, so he can take them upstairs for me.
Hope you have a great weekend.
See ya :)
ps. I hope the weather is going to be nice, and maybe we can do some things outside with the yard. If it does of course, you talking about us, we do things that take a few minutes to put up,such as; ornaments in the backyard.
Simple huh.

Thursday, March 4th, 2004

9:26 pm

Hi
Today, was a good day. I was exhausted by the end of the day. After studying this afternoon, I had to run to the bank, and pick up some butter, since Dennis was going to be home for dinner, I picked up some roasted chicken already made. We ended having for dinner vegetable tray of assortd veggies, roasted chicken. Dennis loves his chicken. He like dinner being prepared when he came home. We sat down and we talked a bit. I had some Algebra problems due tomorrow morning. So, I finished and Dennis went into the garage to do his man things. He really needed to spend time in his garage. I was reading "Rape of Nanking". As I was reading I recieved a call, and it was my daughter in law, Nikki. She wanted to make sure I recieved her email, about coming to California for Christmas. She is excited about coming, and she wanted to make sure it was okay. The reason I think she called to see what our answer will be. She has already got the days off from work. I know I need to talk to my son, Mike. I have a feeling something is going on. I cannot put my finger on it. Maybe, I should not worry, but there is something not quite right with this picture.
I am glad the weekend is around the corner. This week seemed a little stressed and long. I am not sure what the reasoning for the attitude, but I am just guessing, it has to do with the nice weather. I really wanted to be out of the class area, and do some shopping, and roam around outside. I really wanted to do this more than anything, but I had to decide History class was important where I should be.
I purchased some pink bunnies, the peep marshmellow pink sugar bunnies, I love them. I had them for dessert. I love the marshmellow little peep bunnies. I was goofing around with them speaking in bunny talk, and I was having a good time with it, and my husband started to join the bunny talk, but afterwhile, we had to get serious again, and getting into the routine again. It was fun to do stupid things, which only family hears you, being stupid.
Have a great weekend. :)

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Tuesday, March 2nd, 2004

6:58 pm

I feel a little tired today. I loose my train of thoughts and I cannot retrieved them. I am not sure why this happening. Actually, I have been like this all day. It is frustrating. I do not why I am having these days.
I was frustrated we recieved a D- on our concept check. This is the first time I ever received a D- on anything. This was a concept what it was like to recieve a D- on anything. I was astonished we did not know anything about the Teller Amendment, and The Platt Amendment. I cannot believe I cannot get the concept what makes them special, which I focused on how the United States was interested in Cuba, Hawaii, Phillipines, and I just was not thinking about these amendments. I have learned a valuable lesson. I have decided not to tell my husband, Dennis. I think first of all, he would blame himself for not being around to help with questions, and help me with this week. Again, he is working anything from 12 to 18 hours a day. His job is very stressful. He is working throughout the weekends. We spend some time here and there throughout the weekend, and I do not want to burden him with his job. His job is going through a major computer change and he is really involved and become the Director throughout the Global and has employees throughout the world, such as; India, Germany, Asia, and California, I cannot put all the countries he is involved it would be such a list.
But getting back, he would blame himself without being involved with my homework more, and I do not want this to happened. The D- is my fault, and my partner in the group, I feel bad I let my partner,Amanda, down. I have this problem with this, but I have learned a major valuable lesson to cover all issues in the book, not part of it.
I had a terrible day for myself. I had a terrible start in the day. I dreamt that I had my feet tied down, and when I awoke this morning, my fee we tangled with the blanket and my anklet bracelt was weaved into the blanket, and had a difficult time to release my feet from the blanket. I did managed to free them, but it put me into a terrible start this mornng. I did vote today, thus far, I have not heard anything what the results were coming at the end. At least, I made my decisions a few days ago, so it was not a disaster of a day. Who knows what I would of done on the voting screen.
Well, I feel awful today, and I cannot get my shit together today, so I have to try to focus and relax in getting my shit together, so I will have a better day tomorrow. Oh crap,(I realized) I have to pratice my violin, I wonder how I wil do tonight,I will have to see how it goes tonight. My husband just called a moment ago, and he is having a shitty day. He did not go into too much, but I am sure I will listen tonight. He will be home late again tonight. I will not give him my results of my concepts check in history. I have to keep a secret this time from him. I usaully do not do this, but I think is a time for it. Maybe, I will tell when we both have a better day , or when things go better in history or when he is having a better day. I am hungry, I need to eat some kind of food tonight. I do not want to go out,
it is too much a pain in the butt. So I can manage something here at home.
I need to shove, but i feel sad and awful the way my day went.
See ya :(
Bye for now.